I've recently had some free time on my hands, so why not tie some loose ends? A lot of you at Onionfist are probably wanting some answers to what's happening in my life lately, so I guess here it is.
Note: I won't be regularly doing this, as this is just something I wanted to do since I'm only here to change information about my own page, which happens once in a blue moon.
Post-departure
Although I don't remember these events entirely, I was pretty stressed because of what occurred around the time I left. I won't go into detail, but I had some feuds between a couple of other mapmakers, which led to me literally abandoning Onionfist entirely. I thought this was the best time to leave as I didn't want to be a part of any more drama, yet to enhance the situation. I had also reached my 12 map goal, which is something that I constantly reiterated. I was originally going to leave after 10 maps, but I felt I had more to give at the time.
Lots of members knew of the myth that I would always come back after 6 months or so. Just clarifying, this will never happen. It took a long time after my departure to resist the temptation of returning... I really liked being creative and making the most detailed maps as possible. In reality, Onionfist was starting to become a distraction and devoting time to making maps instead of to my studies and social life became an increasingly difficult habit to break.
One thing that I promised was that I would not associate myself with Onionfist any longer... this included communication with other members. I knew that some people still reached out to me, but I swore to not reply because it would only strengthen my urge to rejoin. The last person I remember talking to was the creator of Ice Dodo, wishing me luck for my future and thanking me for my contributions.
Overall, the short but internally long time after my departure was pretty hard to fathom. I kept telling myself that it was the right decision to do, even though I had to sacrifice a lot of ongoing and upcoming projects that I had organised.
Deletion of Discord account and Blender
It was September in 2024, peak period of studying. I had distanced myself from Onionfist, but I still remembered my time there. One day, I had a long period of thinking about what I should do about Discord... should I keep it just in case? Well, I decided I would delete Discord entirely. Just get rid of everything there and then... it was for my own good. I had kept my Discord account active just in case there was any dire events or issues with Onionfist that I needed to be there for, but nothing had come up besides some minor messages about the use of my music/pixel art/scrapped maps... again, I don't remember the details. It just felt unnecessary to have Discord, not to mention that I wasn't really a part of anything else that used the platform. I had moved on, and that was that.
Around the same time I had also deleted Blender, including all the abandoned and unfinished maps that I considered releasing before I left because of the same reason of why I deleted Discord.
As I mentioned, this was around the time I had a LOT of work I had to complete so deleting Discord would additionally give me the relief I needed to continue to study.
Stuff that came up
Even though I was now a part of Onionfist legend, a video regarding the Ice Dodo 2024 Awards had somehow appeared on my feed. Intrigued by this, I watched it, and discovered that my final map Deimos had won a category, and the entire awards ceremony was partially dedicated to me, in which I still greatly appreciate to this day. Seeing old members such as Darrk, who's voice I was hearing for the first time, gave me an immense sense of nostalgia. It was truely amazing seeing that Onionfist was still thriving.
Speaking of thriving, I had also discovered that Ice Dodo was awarded by Google. I felt just as happy as everyone at Onionfist probably felt when they found out. I just want to say congratulations to Onionfist, especially Dododo, for Ice Dodo achieving this milestone. Remember that satirical prediction that I made for Ice Dodo at I believe was the start of 2024? That may well be coming true after all!
What led to this?
Currently, I have finished my intense studies for the year, and fortunately enough I've been accepted into University! Since I am going to enter the next stage of my life journey, I needed to tidy up some information about my past. This included my time at Onionfist, so I went here and edited my page briefly, deleting unnecessary information.
Even though Onionfist feels like a fever dream by now, I couldn't help writing a post to inform the community. It seems melancholy, but it's a good time as many of you probably still have questions in regards to where I'm at in life.
So... what now? Will I ever return?
No... it's near infinitely unlikely. Maybe in the distant future, if Onionfist is still around, which I hope it is. As for now, you shouldn't have any hope at all that I will come back. What is done is done, and it cannot be changed. The temptation of rejoining after I had left is entirely gone now.
Glad to see maps are still being added to Insolence Cup. Leaving Onionfist was a big step, and deleting my Discord account was a giant step... but I will never, EVER delete Ice Dodo. I don't play it anymore, but in the rare case that I do, I'll play the maps that I had created, again for that sense of nostalgia. Most recently, seeing that the legendary Dodge and Weave map had been approved and added into my cup made me laugh hysterically!
I know that I left a lasting impact, and I still appreciate all the effort that I had put into making the community better... but it's up to others to maintain that vision. So I want to hear from you! I'm not sure if you'll see this today, or tomorrow, or in the next week or so, but when someone sees this I'm sure the whole server will be eager to hear that Insolence is still out there, now going to University and still making music (I wish I could send some new bangers that I had made in the meantime to Onionfist to use).
So here's your chance. Let me know how the server is going! Any big events, huge news, things regarding myself or other members? Keep me in the loop, I'm looking forward to hearing from you guys.
Once again, thanks for that lovely dedication, and everything else in between my departure and this moment in time. I guess I can say that I got my happy ending.
Insolence, March 2025
Note: I don't plan on having Fandom forever. Some of you may remember that I was going to delete my Fandom account as well, but I never did because I needed it to access information in regards to my studies... but I will delete it eventually. I won't be active here after around a week so but then don't message me and expect me to reply.
